Monday, August 20, 2007
In skool nw..so bored nutin to do..dun feel like doin anitin so jus blog for fun..Sakura still havent called me yet.kinda giving up.k bored.ciao!!
signing out....
shaz_grl
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Friday, August 17, 2007
Went for interview at Sakura Northpoint todae with Eija.darling followed us bt then he waited outside.Eija recommended me the job as she knew the manager there.bt the manager wasn't there at that time so we did'nt get to see him.im kinda waitin for their call rite nw.bt im nt sure if i would get the job.one of the worker there gave me a
SHITY face when i said i only wanna work part time.sux!bt i really do hope i will get the job though.argh!!
Darling told me to wait for the call n he tinks that i would definitely get the job.bt i dun noe,really nt sure.i want to wrk n i want the job.bt i would give up searching if i dun get dis one.
Actually,i dun really noe the reason i wanna wrk.i dun really nid money (i tink).bt i guess theres no harm having extra cash to spend on.perhaps i cn help darling out with his practical lessons.n then i cn enrole my driving lessons when i pass theory.darling also nid a new handphone badly.
Anewae,i kinda miz my darling.he's been acting very weird these daes.i still tink he doesn't love me anymore.he looks like he hate to msg me nowadaes.he hate meeting me n talking to me.i dun noe.maybe he really do
HATE me.haiz................am i really dat bad as a gf?or maybe he's interested in another grl????SHIT!!!i really do love him though...
Btw,darling chose this clothing for me for my cousin's wedding dinner...nice isn't it?prasan...hehe...such gd taste he have..miz takin pic with him...
signing out.... shaz_grl
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Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Darling dun
love me anymore...
signing out...
shaz_grl
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Monday, August 13, 2007
Dear darling...........
she made a mistake.she gave her number and she regret doin that.she made him cry and she felt terrible.now she's saying sorry for what she have done.she didnt want to hurt him bt she did.dats the reason y she admitted to him that she's wrong.she's sorry...
she made another mistake.she got really pissed off with him.reason??MONEY.it wasn't a big deal anewae.bt she was pissed off real bad.she made harsh remarks to him.really harsh remarks.n it hurt him again.she didn't noe y she was mad n now,she dun noe if she should apologise.she feels really bad though.she's sorry??
if darling were to read this,he should noe the real story and wat actually happened.baby,i feel really bad and i wish that this has not happen.i dun want u to go through all this pain bcos of me.i noe that u r goin through alot of difficulties n i wanna help.dun get me wrong dear.i really treasure u.i love u.
signing out.....
shaz_grl
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Wednesday, August 1, 2007
Have u ever felt the feeling of being hurt??well i have....its like when ur heart is torn into pieces and glass shattered.
Have u ever felt like crying??well i have....when the whole world goes dark and turn its back on me.and all i wanna do is cry and cry and hope that everitin will go back to the way its supposed to be.
Have u ever felt like losing hope??well i have....watever i do doesnt seem to work and no matter hw hard i try,it doesnt do any different.the more effort i put in,the worst it gets.
Have u ever felt like killing urself??well i have....the feeling of going up to the roof top and jumping down to my death.the feeling of swallowing a million pieces of pills and die a slow death.the feeling of cutting my bare wrist with a sharp knife.the feeling of waiting for the train to run over my body.
Have u ever felt like not being appreciated??well i have....i tried to be gd and nice in watever i do and hoping for the slightest action the would show me im being appreciated.bt nuting seems to be going my way.
wats the point of me giving the best that i can when nobody sees it?
to the person whom i thought i love most....
u have always been my no. 1.i treated u my best.i wanted u to at least appreciate me.i have given u all that i own.sumtimes i tink that u r having too much of me bt i didnt care.cos i love u.bt i want sumting in return.i want ur love.i want ur care.i want u to listen to the words that i have to speak.i want u to understand me.my dear,dats ur weakness....u barely understand me.talk to me.uve always wanted to forgive n forget bt i cant.its jus nt me.i need to talk to someone when i dun feel gd.n dats u cos u r the only person that i have.bt u nvr gave me the chance.n im very dissapointed with u.
signing out....
shaz_grl
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