Wednesday, August 1, 2007

Have u ever felt the feeling of being hurt??
well i have....its like when ur heart is torn into pieces and glass shattered.
Have u ever felt like crying??
well i have....when the whole world goes dark and turn its back on me.and all i wanna do is cry and cry and hope that everitin will go back to the way its supposed to be.
Have u ever felt like losing hope??
well i have....watever i do doesnt seem to work and no matter hw hard i try,it doesnt do any different.the more effort i put in,the worst it gets.
Have u ever felt like killing urself??
well i have....the feeling of going up to the roof top and jumping down to my death.the feeling of swallowing a million pieces of pills and die a slow death.the feeling of cutting my bare wrist with a sharp knife.the feeling of waiting for the train to run over my body.
Have u ever felt like not being appreciated??
well i have....i tried to be gd and nice in watever i do and hoping for the slightest action the would show me im being appreciated.bt nuting seems to be going my way.

wats the point of me giving the best that i can when nobody sees it?

to the person whom i thought i love most....
u have always been my no. 1.i treated u my best.i wanted u to at least appreciate me.i have given u all that i own.sumtimes i tink that u r having too much of me bt i didnt care.cos i love u.bt i want sumting in return.i want ur love.i want ur care.i want u to listen to the words that i have to speak.i want u to understand me.my dear,dats ur weakness....u barely understand me.talk to me.uve always wanted to forgive n forget bt i cant.its jus nt me.i need to talk to someone when i dun feel gd.n dats u cos u r the only person that i have.bt u nvr gave me the chance.n im very dissapointed with u.

signing out.... shaz_grl

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